Long Nights

As the days are getting longer, the nights are also. Nights are the worse for me, it is when I miss James the most. I keep telling myself that this is only for a month but then I realize that once this month is over then it is that much closer to deployment. So it is 7:30 am and I still haven't been to sleep. It is hard to sleep in our king size bed along, it just feel too empty. So I ended up staying up all night washing clothes. I was washing the last of James' and I was standing there with one of his shirts just smelling it and crying. I knew that they day would come when I would do this, I just expected it to be during the actual deployment and later on, not this soon. It's only been a week.